Because My Life Is A Sequel
The black and white blanket has turned grey
as your words becomes frayed
There’s no longer excuses for me to stay
So I leave you with tears but I can’t cry so I bray
You came as a stranger, you choose no way
Indifferent
Why don’t you chase me
You don’t even want to see my shadow that adheres behind me
You choose to be lonely
or you already have somebody
To make you warm
warm tea, warm chocolate milk or warm your body
I’m not gonna miss you but the weird scent of your body
I turn around and stare, stare deep
to the closing door
my eyes convinced myself that this is all over
I’m not gonna cry on my bedroom floor
not anymore
Because my life is sequel
like a big thick book it comes with so many chapters
And my belly started to itch
means I can’t wait for another company
You’re Here In My Mind
I love to see you sad because then I could wipe your tears and whisper in your ears to not be sad. Because that’s the only way I could embrace you and be there when there’s no one beside you.
Because I love you is not enough for you to notice my existence no matter how long I’ve been here watching you indulged by your so called lover. And I love you not to have your body beside me but your voice, your smile, and your oh so cute way to laugh.
I can’t help but imagine your voice, the voice that is so nude and lovely.
Maybe in the end you would be here and I’ll made you talk and talk and I’ll marry your words
I have to clear my throat three times and get my nerves and my ears ready to listen to what I’m saying, I’m started to shivering.
Could this be the end?
Do you have to be so pretentious
And hiding from the light
Cursed with your sceptic mind
Don’t you feel aroused
when you know they’re watching you?
When he can do everything he likes, why can’t I? Maybe I’m just way too absurd that he can’t see how could it be interesting to be me but one day he’ll know what I meant. One day when he could really see me the way I am maybe he’ll know that I’m not too weird. Why would he too much worry about life then he’s jealous with the fact that I’m so laid back and free. Why would he do that, to torture me? Maybe.
Maybe You Know Me Too
I know you’re awesome because I love you
I know when you’re sad because I know you
Because you know me too
You could be extra fragile when you fall into the wrong hand
I don’t think.. that’s why I live
And you don’t live for a wasted life
And you drive so fast because you’re worth a chase
And all I could give is trouble, trouble and it’s horrible
And I’m a bit mad and so sad
You’re not here to shed my tears
Maybe you’re too tired, I know when you are
You’re not a maze nor a riddle
You’re so bare that everyone could read your whole life
Or if they’re lucky you would give everything he could tell about his life
And my heart is broken and you’re not here, you left it open
If you think I’ll be okay without you, maybe you knew me
maybe it’s true, I just feel lonely, a little lonely
Maybe I just haven’t used to
not having you around
11.30
I should have learn from the thirst that I feel right now, that I’ve blessed with all the blessings. And I’ve learned how to dream without sleeping, and your masculine scent sent me to paradise and your foot step draw a rainbow before me. And this bread I eat is like your breath and tastes like love at first sight. And I still remember that time the clouds chasing us and the moon is on the ceiling of this room, hanging so close I’m scared it’ll fell onto my head but it was beautiful.
Shall we dance till we death because I’m so happy I forgot to put light in my eyes but you said I’m as beautiful as the butterfly, you just can’t fly he said. I would like to color this blanket blue, just how you know I love….blue. And if you have something to say please hold it unless it’s gorgeous. Next time you should sing your favorite song, but your voice is my favorite, and I love how you can tell that red is red and white is white and you don’t even care about my feeling.
I would have said that I’ve blessed with all blessings, but the rain begin to fall vigorously and I can’t hear my praying heart and my throat is sore anyway.
I was so bad at crying
That every time I saw my crying face on the mirror I laugh
I was so bad at crying
That when I cry, I sounds like laugh
I was also bad at smiling
With a little soreness inside
I was so bad at smiling
That every time I smile it kills me
I wasn’t good at laughing
My laugh sounds annoying
I never good at laughing
That every time I laugh my eye’s watering
I wasn’t good at amusing
I was always got in the wrong time
I wasn’t good on singing
I never match the rhyme
But I must be good on something
Cussing probably or complaining maybe, must be something
I don’t know who else can love me more than you do And I don’t know who else could understand me more than you do It’s like I’m a book that you’ve read 10 times That you can recite what I’m going to do next and what I’ve done I don’t know who else can laugh the unfunny things with me Because in our world we hold the throne and everyone’s a slave for our craziness and fondness I don’t know who else can handle my farts There’s nothing that we do but laugh at I don’t know how could I live without you Because every breath that I take with you is a glory, a sin, a madness, a happiness, sadness and a gift I don’t know who can replace you Because so far with you is so good I don’t know how could I describe you I guess you knew when our body collide I don’t know if you know this I love you, and I hope forever I will always loving you
I’m helpless
my heart’s beating so fast
could barely breath
I can’t pick any words that scattered on my brain
why did I keep on silence
and didn’t say I love you instead
and you’re just sink down under your killer silent
Probably I should remind you the memories we had
they should tell you how much I love you
and why didn’t you tell me,
what should I do or how I should behave
I promise I will listen to you carefully now
Just tell me how
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